So all right all right. This is the THIRD time I've reposted this. Sometimes, you just need a little reminder of who you are. =) And yes the title is a play on words haha.

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After an enlightening discussion with James many nights ago, I've stumbled across some realizations that I think are noteworthy. These are things that I believe can help everyone in one way or another. They've helped me a lot, and hopefully the utility of the following paragraph(s) will be inspiring to those indulge.

I guess the first thing I would like to mention, was my statement of wanting to be more charismatic in my previous blog. This is connected to a larger statement of me just wanting to improve myself in general. As I started to reflect upon myself and my desires, I started to ask more and more questions about myself. Why is it important to me to be charismatic? What is it about not being able to be an enrapturing person makes me dissatisfied with myself? Basically my desire to be more attractive takes root in basic insecurities with myself. That statement is pretty much universal. When we need something in order to sustain happiness, the happiness achieved is never really ours to begin with. It's a dependency on things that are not only not in our control, but never constant.

I don't know about you guys, but I believe that not only do we all deserve happiness, but we deserve happiness that is ours. Not something that's as random as picking a colored jellybean out of a 10 foot tall jar and hoping it's orange. The whole world is random, and unless you can travel through time, it would be unwise (and unhealthy) to put all our eggs in a basket that we can't garauntee.

So this brings me to my next point. If it would be foolish to rely on happiness that comes from sources that we can't control, where should we look to find happiness?

We look towards the one thing that we can control, and that is ourselves of course! I know what you're thinking, and that's "But Mick! How can I be happy with just myself? I'm this and that and blah blah blah and yaddah yaddah" That's when you have to step back and ask why you aren't okay with those things. This definitely can't be done overnight. I'll admit it's a long road. But this is where you start to really understand yourself. So you're not okay with being unattractive? Why is being unattractive bothering you? What difference would you want to make if you were attractive? as you start to ask how these things affect you, you'll slowly but surely dive deeper into the subconscious mind where all of our basic insecurities can be traced back to.

Long story short, it's pretty much changing your mind about yourself. Sounds simple, and it is. Often you'll hear me say "What are you doing to becoming the person you want to be?" And in some ways it is definitely good to be self motivated to improve yourself. However, when do you decide that you are that person you want to be? If you're always struggling for something more, you'll never be satisfied with what you have. You will never reach the You from the future. You are constantly in the Now, the present. This very instant is all you know. I know I'm sort of contradicting myself, asking you to strive for the future, but realize you're never there. Motivation without nessecity.  This is where it gets kind of funky. Chances are if you...aren't developed enough, you might not be able to fully comprehend what I'm talking about

When you start to understand that the only thing you will ever experience is your raw existence in the Now, you can understand that this existence is perfect. Every possibility from every choice and every decision has led to this exact, perfect moment of your being.

Now you're probably thinking of ten thousand arguments as to why you are not perfect. My question to you is: What is perfect?

Everybody says "Nobody is Perfect." If you're not perfect, how can you pass that judgement on to other things or people? So then how do you go on to decide what is perfect? Let me share my thoughts, this is getting really philisophical, so bear with me.

The minute you create a list of standards for perfection, it immediately becomes subjective. No matter what you say about being perfect, it's a skewed and biased perception that doesn't have any validity at all. So perfection is not subjective, it's completely objective. There is no comparison when anything is perfect. The only thing that is completely objective from all angles and all views is pure, raw existence. It is perfect because no matter how you look at "it", "it" still exists. And if you weren't looking at it, it would be there. Therefore, existence, in all its forms, is perfect.

Of course one could look at a beat up car and say "Oh this isn't perfect at all!" But when you say that, you're attatching your subjective standards to the word perfect.

So backtrack to ourselves again, and why we think we aren't perfect. Then realize that we are using the word "perfect" in its subjective form. We are perfect because we exist objectively.

Backtrack even more and realize that the things we are not okay with about ourselves is subjective, just like our view of the word perfect. There is no such thing as flaws, only what we perceive to be flaws. If something does not contain flaws, then naturally it would be flawless.

But if you were to continue to apply this term subjectively to your life and compare yourself to what you are not. Then it will only brew frustration, anger, and ultimately, depression and stress. All of which are the antithesis to our goal of Happiness.

Hopefully you at least some slight understanding of how to achieve happiness from yourself. By accepting your perfect existence, and switching off all those bias perceptions of your life created by the environment/society/etc...Understand that You are a raw human being, Perfectly created to exist. This is where you start to create a barrier from your desires, and your self sustained happiness. Your desires should not influence your Happiness, because everything that happens is indeed Perfect.

There's an infinite amount of information to share about this. And I am more than willing to share all I can. =)